Ever felt like you were not enough? Like you were the biggest disappointment to your family, like you didn't try hard enough? Ever wonder how you could be enough?
I know this is a little out of character for me, but I am posting this in lieu of this weekend. I am supposed to make a quick trip to California to see my folks (not to mention the fact that my husband and I are scrimping and saving and I blew a couple Benny's on a ticket!) and the weather forecast doesn't look good. When I explain to my family that I may not be able to make the trip due to delays (literally the trip is sooooo short that if I am delayed at all I will be arriving on one plane to depart on another going home). It's not like I can control the weather!!!
To be frank, I feel as though I am stretching myself to the max for my parents and sister, and there only response is, "That's all you are coming for?"....sheesh lo weesh!! Never mind the fact that I have a job, a husband, a home to run, and I am hosting Christmas!!! Yep, that's right....I have to get home to run to the market to make a feast for Christmas.
To tie this up....I'm done. I'm tired of not being enough. I'm tired of being the family disappointment (supposed doctor turned freelance writer doesn't really scream pride in my family)....because at the end of the day, I AM ENOUGH!!!!
I have the love of a wonderful man who loves me for me, and a goofy child/dog who reminds me to laugh and enjoy things like fresh cut grass and warm sunshine. And I have the love and acceptance of the Man above, my gracious Savior. They see me and that is more than enough. I am enough. So are you, just as you are.