Sunday, January 30, 2011

Giving It My All

Life never fails to amaze me....

It seems like the moment I have something figured out, life has a small hiccup, a change of heart, a turn in the once straight path.

If I had known a year ago what path lay ahead, I would have laughed hysterically and said you must have the wrong girl. "My life is far too unpredictable, God doesn't use people like me for big things", is what I would have told you. Wrong girl, wrong time, wrong, wrong, wrong.....

Ahem, well, I guess I am somewhat special. Every day I feel my heart growing and swelling a little more for things I never even imagined. Like going back to school to get my master's degree. I was sure my schooling was behind me, but God has something in store for me, and this scared, shy, quiet little girl is ready to jump feet first into another great adventure.

And husband and I are talking more and more about adopting little ones down the road, whilst enjoying our little family now. We are a complete unit, happy to be the three of us, and patiently waiting for the day we expand our arms to welcome someone else.

And moving....again. To a place with land, room to farm and grow the nourishment we need from the earth, from the very land God created. To give way to a life that is even more simple than we ever imagined, a life that is all about church on Sunday mornings and planning the harvest months in advance. A time that I thought for sure was lost, and if God deems it so, will be my reality.

The adventure is afoot, and I can't wait to see what is in store for my little family. I guess I'm more important than I thought....we all are.

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Open Spaces

I don't know about you, but I need open spaces....

I need to see open fields, and picturesque farms, and tons of fresh sunshine. I cringe when I stand in the shadows of concrete buildings, with people constantly rushing all about. I don't even enjoy being in stores, with fluorescent lighting!!

I guess I am old school...should have been born a Mrs. Ingalls. Work day in and day out alongside my husband, building a life of family, faith, and love on a quiet little farm, and going to town once a month for goods. That is the life....who knows, maybe that life will come true! I don't think that would be so bad, a life of simplicity, self-sufficiency, and complete peace. Hmmmmmm.....for now I will continue to soak up the wide open spaces.

Saturday, January 22, 2011

I Want to Love Like Molly

I want to love like snuggley....

So warm.....

So protective....

So much a very best friend....

And I am so glad she loves me just because I'm me....

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Give Me Time

This morning, Molly and I went for our usual walk. The sun was shining, the air was chilly, and the breeze was blowing perfectly. My husband had to leave for work, which always seems to leave me a little sad, even though he does this five days a week. I guess I have attachment issues, and wish somehow, someway we could work together from home. When you find your best friend, you want to do everything you can to be near that person all the time....or maybe that's just me. (Does anyone have a ranch that they need a small family to run, working for room and board? Just lemme know :) )

So on this walk, I got to thinking about these past two years. For those of you who follow, you know I was mugged/assaulted a year and a half ago, and then a six months ago we lost our first baby. Since then I have fought a daily battle with anxiety and the universal question of "what if" this or that I was walking, I began to pray. I began to pray for anyone I knew of in need. I began to pray for those who don't know God, and for those who find themselves bobbing along, not sure where the storm will take them.

These past two years have provided me with an opportunity to grow in my faith, and to really understand what it means to trust God. And for the first time, I am thankful for these past few years, as they have molded and shaped me, tested me and pushed me, stretched me and scared me, and made me cling tighter to the Lord than I ever have. I know my story will one day help someone, and I know every day that I rely on God, I am honoring His work and trusting in His ability to show me a love beyond all measure.

So let this mark the start of a new day, days spent more in Scripture and in prayer, days of thanksgiving and not the have-nots, days of comfort and peace in His friendship, days where I remember to smile, and days where He wipes away my tears.

Here's to new days......

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Wishing Upon a Star....

I once asked my husband, "Honey do you think we will be friends in Heaven?"

His response was, "I think so, why?"

I replied, "Because one lifetime just isn't enough."

Love him to the moon and back....

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

I'm Back!!!

Sorry for disappearing for awhile (both computers crashed right after Christmas!)...

As life continues to fast-forward, I have been finding myself slowing down to take a breath, and witness the glory of God all around me. The snow first thing in the morning has me at a stand still, staying in the stillness for another moment to soak up the quiet of the world around me.

I have been staying close to home with the poor weather and poor doggie girl, tore her nail out when she was sprinting around like a mad woman. I have kept her close to my side, and for those of you who are regulars here, you understand my love for this little one. She is in every way possible my kiddo.

So here's to a little sunshine in the midst of the storms....this was a few years ago on our honeymoon....still living the dream.